@LostSoulBaby

3 a.m., drinkin' with this pistol on my lap, uh

Six medications, guess there ain't no fixin' that

It's that broken motherfucker, knucklin' 'til I relapse

If I die, they might cry 'til they inherit my stacks

What a cold fuckin' world, tell me what's the word?

Only time I speak my heart is when the message come out slurred, uh

People-pleasing, always eager to fix a motherfucker's problems

Leave me at the bottom, more comfortable with Gomorrah and Sodom

I chew on fent' and rot my teeth

All for moments of peace and slow heartbeats

Got offered a God I dissed, who gon' save me? (Heh)

All I could do is laugh and say "c'est la vie" (whoa, ye)

Woe is me, I know you get the picture, uh

This type of pain will earn you seven figures

Check my DNA, my RNA come with predictors

This shit is scripture and for what I got, there's no elixirs, uh

Feel like I'm not enough, uh

Find myself playing my dad like Honey Boy and Shia LaBeouf, uh

My mama crying as she watch the clock

Text my bro I love him, even though he got my number blocked

I would give up everything to see my brothers clean

No second thoughts, it's fuck the cost or take me, leave 'em be

Take my money, say you love me, even if it's lies

That connection's so depressing but it's all I got (when I die)

When I die just play this fucking song

I was never meant for this, been tortured just to carry on (when I die)

Couple coupes, lotta zeroes and a couple homes

None of it did shit for me, cock the pistol and now I'm- (when I die)

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Ayy, head in the clouds, it look like it might rain again

Always holdin' back tears, it's how I manage to pay the rent

Pay the bills, place the bet so I don't have to chase the check

Verified through $uicide, the glitz and glamour came and went

Wash my fucking soul and still that one stain is kept

I just wanna be loved, the root of all my pain

Except the type that comes with age

In death, I can finally lay and rest

I'm owed a little peace and I'm ready to erase the debt (I- I- I-)

I never planned on showing the world the face that hides behind the mask

I always thought the last thing I would hear would be the gun's blast

Fill in the black hole in my chest with sex and drugs, but it never lasts, it never lasts

Shit, two years ago Big Pharma should've just cashed me out

Now I got a deviated septum, I'mma just rat me out

Pat me down, ask me how I'm still depressed!

All they see is my set, all they see is lack of debt

All they see is what they wanna see

Calling me a wannabe

I don't wanna be in misery, exit the pharmacy

Get a girl I wanna see, I wanna see how hard I bleed

When she rips out my fucking heart, enter the pharmacy

I'm a private person and take pride in my verses

Fuck your whole opinion, I don't care if it worsens

I'll ruin my reputation and make sure it's on purpose

Fuck this shit!

When I die just play this fucking song

I was never meant for this, been tortured just to carry on (when I die)

Couple coupes, a lot of zeros and a couple homes

None of it is shit for me, cock the pistol and now I'm-

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